Sweet child, in 13 weeks, our lives will change forever.
It seems like just yesterday that I was *im*patiently waiting for you to arrive. I had no idea how much I could love someone until I held you in my arms for the first time. I had no idea all the ways my world would change.
And now look at you, almost 3 years old and full of wonder and joy. Our days are full of learning and loving. You and me. Partners in crime. You are my big helper. You have learned so much in these first 3 years. And so have I.
But in a few short weeks, our days will be shared with someone else; a baby boy who will turn our world upside down. You keep telling me you are so excited – but I know that it will be hard for both of us. Our snuggle time will be shared with a little baby. Our time to cook together and learn the ABCs will be interrupted by a hungry little baby that needs to be fed and snuggled. We are both going to have to learn how to share even better – our time, our love, our attention. But you will have to learn how to share not only your toys but your mommy (& daddy, too).
My heart breaks a tiny bit knowing how fragile your heart might become if you don’t understand that mommy still loves you so much. That my love for you will never change. Even when it seems like this new little life is getting all my love in the first few weeks if no one else can feed him, if no one else can calm him down, or if he takes your favorite snuggle spot. I promise you, my love for you will never fade.
My sweet daughter – I know that you will love him. I know that you will help him learn. You have the biggest, kindest heart of anyone I know.
But for the next few weeks, let me snuggle you longer. Let me color with you even when I’m not doing it right. Let me teach you as much as I can. Let’s go on a few extra adventures while it’s just you and me (and Daddy). Because in 13 weeks, both of our lives will change forever.